phenomenon

2005-11-27T20:32:00.000-08:00

today, boring day. just go jalan2 at parkway. see iqa at work. lols. hehe. buy stuff. and yeah. bought the latest harry potter book. nyeahaha. slow man. ok so what kan. den went to my aunt house. got steamboat. eat. watch a repeat of the vcd keramat bernisan tige tu. ish. tk jelak2 sey. sakit perut tgk cite tu. ketawe bnyk sgt. haha. blablabla. now im home.
ok best. =D

ish. ok. ok. pictures tym. LOLs.
ala. gamba lepas nie. taken on 23/11.
today is 27/11. ok slow uh process nk scanning nie seme. nyeahahaha.

ok enjoy. bye.

2005-10-11T18:04:00.000-07:00

i've changed my link http://blacklipgloss.blogspot.com.
take note of the changes. re-link me okeh?
so sorie to trouble you. thanx. =))

2005-09-12T20:58:00.001-07:00

READ IT. TO ME ITS TOUCHING. I GOT IT FROM HER DIARY. HAHA. WELL.

WRITTEN FOR PPL WHO BELIEVES IN FIRST LOVE.

*sob2*

A TOUCHING DIARY ENTRY by iqa~.

i really missed *** . He had been bz lately and theres no tyme fer hym. YES - i noe his in JC now. And as usual it is really tough. But still i remember what he said to me in the past. " No matter how busy i am, i will always find tyme fer you. " hrmx.. guess he cant do that fer me animore. i realli missed those days when we kinda cared more fer each other. its nyce but i cant turn back tym. I remember one time - how i want hym ti wear tappered pants cos he looks cute in it. Serious. Sumore with his harrington and all. I even remembers how i once know hym. Thru udi. It started when he wants to knal2 with my fren lyk HELL. Well, someone. So i gave hym the grrl email add. Den of cos he is happy. Yeah- thats how i started noeing hym. We continue chattin... blabalabla~

From den on, i find hym caring, friendly, *KEYOOT*.

Known hym well from den onwards. 13 Aug 2004. Yeah. I still rmbrs tt.
On mid Nov 2004. To be exact on the 19th. We became couples. I love tt day. I rmbr the ferst tym i went out wif hym fer th ferst tym at Bedok.
He helped me with art. how kyute. i love his hair. hehe. but tt tyme we werent a couple. just friends.

1 mths. 2 mths. 3 mths. 4 mths.

Yeah. it was not a happy moment fer me.
cos urm..i dunno. its lyk.. haish.. we were on bead terms. we fyte. i regret it so much.
i mish hym so much. and since tt day we werent close anymore. i regret everything that i've done. i dun even reali noe wat i haf done tt makes hym angry.

im lucky to haf someone who undrstnds me. listens to my problems and stuff. accompany me when im alone. he is really diff than my other ex. Now, i dont expext hym yo want me back. i jus hope he wld be happy. i guess noe its gonna be diff.

No one to talk too. No one to cry on. I dunno. No one sees my pain. I just smiled thru my tears. No one noes how hurt i am. I just cried to let my pain out. But its no use. i just dunno how it started. he is bz with his school. and i noe its realli important to hym. i dowan to fyte. no matter what, i still care fer hym soa he had been the guy whom i loved and i cherish tt.

mayb to hym, im not understandable one. its just tt i kept saying anything when im sad, angry or jealous. he told me he hated my attitude. i noe. i've tried to change tt. it really takes tym. ive really tried. he alwaes thinks im prioritising my friends. but im not actually. i treat my friends equally. i dowan my friends to think that since i have bf, i forget bout dem. wat would dey think? its not fair. i dowan hym feeling left out. if he still thinks i am prioritising my friends den i dunno wat else to say.

i really mish hym. i want hym back. but i guess it wouldnt happen. its been 6 mths now since we're apart. i dowan to disturb hym. he have a bright future. A big career ahead of hym. what else fer a JC guy?

im nothin. just hope he is happy now. with whoever. mayb JC girls perhaps? well, at least dey have a bright future ahead of dem too. well he is happy nw ryte so...just..take care..

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thanks fer reading.
u cld leave any comments. thanx.

2005-09-08T21:00:00.000-07:00

been bz lately. im dead tired. my blog seems kinda dead ryte? yeah. sorie. i dont have time to update. mayb in a couple of months im back updating. so ya. prelims are starting soon. o levels are reali2 fucking near. im realy stressed out. haish. well, goodbye. nitez. =))

-mel

2005-08-13T17:34:00.000-07:00

IM GETTIN TIRED OF GOING TO THE CAFE JUST TO GET TO SURF INTERNET.
ARGH!! I HATE IT!! I HATE IT!! HAHA. OH WELL, I JUST HAVE TO WAIT FER THAT FREAKIN COMP TO BE REPAIRED. HMM..

WEEEEEE~ I REALLY APPRECIATE ALL THE PRESENTS.
HAPPI. HAPPI.
HEHE. THANX TO THOSE WHO WISH ME AND FER ALL THE GIFTS.

THANXXXXXX!!!!!!! =))

2005-08-10T18:58:00.000-07:00

anyone kind enough to buy me a PC. cos urmm.. I KINDA NEED ONE!! URGH!!
its torturing me. i need my comp. *sob2*

2005-08-08T14:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! HAHA. K I CRAZY. BBYE.

2005-07-28T20:23:00.000-07:00

im sick. im really sick. i feel so sick. erghh!

2005-07-26T18:00:00.000-07:00

todae is a nice day to go to sleep cos lyke so many farkin teacher din turn up. or i can say are absent. ferst two periods i have maths. and den i got free 4 periods to do our own stuff. and den recess den 2 more free periods. and den straight bio which 101%, must be awake. and 101%, the teacher wouldnt be absent. ok dats my day. i nid to study bio. last 3 chapter. reproduction in plants. heredity and sexual reproduction of animals which is further more interesting. haha. ok bye. =))

2005-07-24T18:50:00.000-07:00

yea2! i made a world guiness record attempt. wohoo! its simple just burst a balloon in 10 seconds. haha.

2005-07-24T10:59:00.000-07:00

cant wait fer the balloon bursting event. hah! im so childish. im afraid of balloon. afraid of bursting it. omg! i cant wait and at the same tyme im afraid. arrgh!

2005-07-23T12:05:00.000-07:00

I wanna say thank you to all Catholic High School boys' fer all their support and making the show a successful ones. And to all my Tampines sec wacky drama peeps. hehe. i love them all. and u are all really great. Great performance. I really enjoyed it. To all the crews, ayuni, yati, christabel, hanisah, atiqa, rasyiqah, billy, naquiah. Thank you. To our inspiring stage manager, sharifah. you were great. To the casts, shameem, shahida, junaidah, saliha, liyana, firdaos, raihana, noraini, suffian, farzana. Without ya'll, the show couldnt go on. Again to the CHS boys', EL drama cast and crew, thank you all so much. Your show was great. To our brilliant director, Mrs Norah Crothers. We really appreciate what you have done and along the journey you make us better people.

THE PIXXIES AT NAFA.

The CHS Boys.

Dressing Room.

suffian do make ups? haha

Guys

GIRLS GO CRAZYY OVER HIM.

NONE OTHER THEN OUR DIRECTOR, MRS CROTHERS.

Praying Session

We cried mind you. The speech was heart-ranching.

The cast and crews

2005-07-22T22:43:00.000-07:00

Day 1 Wednesday.
Venue: NAFA Campus 3 studio theatre

Left at 4 from school. Arrive at the venue. Went to the theatre. Then to the dressing room. It was classy. But we get the small one. And they get the bigger ones. ''They'' as in the Catholic High School boys. Well, it was fun meeting the them. They were great. And ''they'' as in JUST the EL Drama boys' and not the CL Drama boys'. First met. We were not close at all. Maybe they were just shy or something. Mrs Crothers is like introducing us. "CHS boys meet the Tampines girls. and Tampines girls meet the CHS boys. All along she call us tampines girls. Cos majority is girls. Dun be confused cos we got two boys Firdaos and Suffian too. Hanisah and i were really kinda nervous at first run cos it was our first tym there. And the cues are different. Lights are all different. But it was cool learning new stuffs. I think the cues are confusing at first. I was really blurr at that tym. I was sick. The theater is lyk so cold. We got free dinner. And the food is like oily. Its chinese food foer goodness sake and they say its halal. Everyone was hungry and they just eat it. Haha. Ok2. We go reach school ard 11+. Its late.

Day 2 Thursday.
Venue: School then NAFA

It was Racial Harmony Day. I went to school wear baju kurung. Its so pathetic cos I use it fer onlyy lyk 30 minute or somethin like dat. And then changed to tshirt and jeans. Everyone thought it pathetic. Especially Rasyiqah. Hah! Nvm2. Went of to NAFA at 8 am. We have our rehearsal. Breaks. Bla3~. That night the performance was great. Mrs Crothers went on the stage to receive her gift of appreciation. She got the most loudest applause from her 3 schools. Catholic High Schoo, Tampines Sec and Commonwealth Sec. It beats everything. We were glad the first was over. Went home at 11pm.

Day 3 Friday
Venue: School then NAFA.

School was boring as i was looking forward meetin all the drama peeps. Met everyone at the cantten at 11.20a,. Went to NAFA. Met the others. We bond so well. It was amazing. We make enemies too. The CHINESE LANGUAGE drama ppl. They were damn fuckin racist. They called malay terrorist and started talkin about london bombin. Fuck them uh. Hate them to the fuckin core. Shithead. Mrs Crothers were so fucking angry with them. Everyone hates.Hates them. Performance tonight were even better. JUST ME was great. So is WOUNDED. mind u both are drama plays. dont get confused ayte. The casts exchange props. Everyone went on stage to take a bow. We even have fans comign down to the dressing room. It was a great night. Only dat some shiting problems came up and we went home at 11+. Reached school at 12. No buses to fetch us home. Glad the driver offers to sent us individually home. I was tired but it was fun. Missed them all. I really2 missed them. haha. ok.

2005-07-19T19:21:00.000-07:00

it rains again today. and im so loving it. is so lyke a good tyme fer a good nap. everyone looks tired. everyone. i think. school was ok. no complaints. but i hate my OM. haha. fuck ! i failed my chem. shit ! i noe i wont pass fer goodness sake. cos i din study. and i donch noe how my filtration can be written as fertilisation. this is chem not bio. hah! im dreamin too much. o level is nearer and nearer and im trying really2 hard to catch up.. i wont have tyme to blog too i supposed. well.. i don wanna repeat. =))

2005-07-18T22:20:00.000-07:00

a nice windy day. i love it. today practically everyone is talkin about what to wear this thursday. u noe wad day it is i supposed. everyone. mostly the chinese now going ard to borrow costumes. im still thinkin of what to wear. hmm. but fer me, its not fun. i dun get to celebrate in skewl bcos of my stoopid drama rehersal. urgh! thursday is art fest sumore. and i dun get the chance to see it. wednesday is tampines idol. yipee. im happy though i dun see the needs of it. hah! i dunno yet who to vote. bah! on the other hand, im happy that thursday and friday i wont be in skewl one whole day.ill be at NAFA rehearsing. haish. well2. its my last year in secondary skewl. i gotta put everythin in and contribute towards the skewl and behave lyke an angel. haha. k crapz. bubbye. =))

2005-07-17T15:57:00.000-07:00

outcast freaks.

2005-07-14T21:07:00.000-07:00

today basically is boredom. im bored. hah ! bbye. i gotta study.

2005-07-13T19:46:00.000-07:00

to fall in love is always easy
to start a relationship is always simple...
to build it, is always tough...
to maintain it, is 'better said than done'...
to break off, is 'easier said than done'...
to remain friends after u broke off, is never possible...
to forget the memories is 'always doing but never succeeding'...
to heal the pain within is hard and tough and never near simple...
but one has to try to heal your own heart...
the heart belongs to u...
if u don't heal it and have a space for someone to walk in, the heart will always be sealed,
memories will never be forgotten, the pain will never go,
and u will never move on from where u started...
people take wrong directions all the time..
if not,how do we ever realise our mistakes..
and make better choices..
late it might be for your life so far, but it is never too late for your life ahead..
maybe through wrong directions, you made the wrong choices..
but does it mean that through the right directions, you would always make the right choices?
if everything seems like a big trial.. hold on to your faith..
for at least,you had a chance to live a choice..

from a dear friend. =))

2005-07-13T19:18:00.000-07:00

today is fun again ! free periods. i donno wad de heck happen to my english teacher. 2 days mc. weird. she rarely absent herself. must be her twins. i mean her child uh. mayb they sick uh. nvm. skip dat topic. today is photo taking day. i tink i look not good sey. argh! i wanna retake. can? cannot. please. still cannot? lerr. during cca photo taking it was the best. we had both of the shots taken in fun mode. great ! well, drama, what else can it be. wacky. plastic. so fake. hah ! we pose ard in diff style and stuff. they are so wacky. it was great. i love dem. my drama peeps. mwahx!

2005-07-12T19:24:00.000-07:00

school today okay uh. we have free periods. yeah ! i lovee free periods. we get to do what we want. love it. love it. the relief teacher was mr hafiz. not my form teacher mr hafiz but other mr hafiz. looks like a poly student. heh! he was great. very fun. but lyke blur2 liddat. heh! he relief us fer 1 period only. so sad sey. haha. the next period a china doll-like teacher came in. haha. i nvr say her china doll. mr hafiz uh tease her. haha. second period talk2 with jun. tot wanna sleep but den tk jadi. haha. during bio period it was reali2 to me is boring. haha. it was the last three period and everione was lookin tired. it was realy surprising that suddenly 10 minutes before bio ends, mr hafiz the second(haha) lets us off earlyy. it was really unexpected. never would he wanna let off us early. and addition to that our next lesson is also bio(this one supp class.). it was supposed to start at 2.20. but he lets us go for his class at 2.30. he tols us to rest. and..and.. went we went for his class, he even let us SLEEP for lyke 30 MINUTES. whoa! is he in a good mood or wad?! he force us to sleep. he asked us to take a rest. well, we did bargain. haha. suddenly he became lyke an angel. weird huh? he's not the strict, fierce, crazy, mad teacher i dat i knew. haha. well.. dats all fer todae. im tired nid a rest. byeeeeee!

2005-07-08T21:05:00.000-07:00

here are some pixxies taken during drama rehersal. im crappy. dun have other things to do i take pictures. ok. theres some blurry image.
lemme introduce everyone.

meet our sound crew, rasyiqah.

meet our director, norah crothers.

meet our venues, mr rifle range. he's hot with graffiti all ard. hah!

meet mr bunny wabbit. haha. crapz.

meet mr rifle range again. style ehk.

meet our siren crew, naquiah. shes so cute la. so naive. haha.

meet our cast, jun the topsy turvy lady. ahaha. whoa! whos dat beside her.

meet our drama president, sharifah, in red. so busy packing.

sharifah again. heh!

rearranging the props. cos its tyme to go home. aww!

now who spilt the milk..err..i mean the drink. ahaha!

cian noraini farzana and jun. its not their fault.

meet mr psycho. haha. the graffiti man on the wall.

meet the exit way. haha.

suffian is tired i see.

see dat banner. VOTE now. tampines idol is otw. hah!

looking serious. noraini shahida and raihana.

are they acting? or playing? wats up ith climbing on the tables den? ahah!

so thats all fer today. our drama cast and crew. preparing for our major performance at NAFA. see ya.

2005-07-07T21:39:00.000-07:00

wanna noe something? someone,i dunno who..fadly, yishun mistaken me to be yana. haha. how farnie can dat be. after much talk with him, he still thinks im yana. weird? ok da.

someone ***** said:
ni yana ehk ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com said:
nope

someone ***** said:
k

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com said:
ok

someone ***** said:
asal pic sebiji seh macam kawan msn aku ?

someone ***** said:
font pun samer

someone ***** said:
ni emily kan ! ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
huh? no uh.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
mistaken identity kepe?

someone ***** said:
iyerrkerr ..

someone ***** said:
jap2

someone ***** said:
kan sebiji tu muka

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
hah !

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
tapi sala org uh.

someone ***** said:
ni adek yana arr

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
no uh

someone ***** said:
bedek

someone ***** said:
I BGEIL TUU ! !

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
no uh.

someone ***** said:
cara speaking pun same

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
serious sia

someone ***** said:
yana ! ! terus-terang arr ! !

someone ***** said:
bagedil ! !

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
bukan !

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
email laen kan !

someone ***** said:
bleh tambah perr

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
ish.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
ni bukan emily uh.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
confirm sala org nyer.

someone ***** said:
ni yana bagedil ..

someone ***** said:
ouhh

someone ***** said:
ko yana nyer kakak

someone ***** said:
ker mak ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
nope

someone ***** said:
ker adek ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
nope

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
urgh !

someone ***** said:
yana ..

someone ***** said:
ohh yana ..

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
huh?

someone ***** said:
conferm ni yana arr .. aku kenal arr si bagedil tuu nyer font , gambar , cara
speaking

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
bukan uh.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
check betol2 uh. u got the wrong person uh.

someone ***** said:
abeh muka samer bulat lak tuu .. celak pun samer .. samer2 gebu

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
coincidentally uh tu.

someone ***** said:
lekk suahhh

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
huh?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
still tk cayer?

someone ***** said:
susah arr

someone ***** said:
smua coincident .. macam maner tuu

someone ***** said:
stakat email jerr tak sama

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
eh serious sey.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
im not emily. totally.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
im mel.

someone ***** said:
melo ?

someone ***** said:
ker milo ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
haha farnie uh tu

someone ***** said:
abeh aper ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
mel

someone ***** said:
mel jek ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
uhuh

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
urgh !

someone ***** said:
chill arr beb

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
ok2.

someone ***** said:
k arr

someone ***** said:
klu tu yana bagedil .. ni panggil melo jerr k ?

someone ***** said:
set

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
haha. tk pasal2.

someone ***** said:
takper arr .. anyway nick melo sedarp tau ..

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
yelar tu.

someone ***** said:
btol ..

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
haha.

someone ***** said:
klu kawan ko ketawa maknernyer drg suka

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
mepek2.

someone ***** said:
sori arr melo

someone ***** said:
k arr .. skg aku tak mepek lagi

someone ***** said:
k melo ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
yelar tu. shuddup uh.

someone ***** said:
uh huhhh ! ! !

someone ***** said:
cara si bagedil tu type shuddup pun macam gitu ! !

someone ***** said:
wkakakkakakakkaka

someone ***** said:
bagedil , bagedil

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
haha. weird.

someone ***** said:
ehk , jgn nak tipu aku arr .. aku dulu us nyer f.b.i

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
huh?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
tk tipu uh.

someone ***** said:
mesti arr tipu

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
tk uh

someone ***** said:
ko ni sentiasa bagedil arr

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
sumpah sey

someone ***** said:
del ohh del ..

someone ***** said:
bagedil , aku buat lagu titile bagedil untul masok battle of the band bleh tak ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
eh2. u got the wrong person la for goodness sake.

someone ***** said:
bagedil2 .. sentiasa bagedil

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
huh?

someone ***** said:
ntg

someone ***** said:
yana .. ngaku arr

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
bukan uh.

someone ***** said:
plz

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
mcm ane nk mengaku if im not yana

someone ***** said:
waaaaa ! ! yanaa ! !

someone ***** said:
esshhh

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
huh? pe lagi nie.

someone ***** said:
nak caya ko pun susa arr

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
susah ko ckp? eh senang uh.

someone ***** said:
yelar2

someone ***** said:
gasak ko .. tapi aku maseh tak caya

someone ***** said:
k ..

someone ***** said:
tutop crita eh melo ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
pape uh.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
tapi tetap im not emily ok?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
ok set.

someone ***** said:
k melo

someone ***** said:
ko melo aka bagedil

someone ***** said:
aku fadzly aka hensem

someone ***** said:
fair ?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
huh?

someone ***** said:
ouhh k ..

someone ***** said:
melo .. ko blum 16 ker 15 ?

someone ***** said:
ko 15 ker 16*

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
15+

someone ***** said:
YaNa ! !

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
pe uh?

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
im not ok.

someone ***** said:
u r yana ! !

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
no !

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
coincident uh

someone ***** said:
plz plz plz .. tell me u r yana ! !

someone ***** said:
takkan smua benda coinciddent

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
wad more u wan uh.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
lermark !

someone ***** said:
asal susa sgt nak ngaku ni ..

someone ***** said:
bukan nyer aku nak uat aper2 kt ko

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
how to mengaku la when im not yana.

` mel _ . http://xexquisite-phenomenax.blogspot.com says:
urgh ! tk phm2 la deni.

it ended but then he still not convince. haish2. mcm2 uh.

2005-07-07T19:07:00.000-07:00

its a hot day today. damn hot. feel so sweaty. urgh ! heh ! =))
im happy. your happy. we're happy. ok good then. smile.

2005-07-06T16:00:00.000-07:00

i screwed up !

2005-07-04T14:46:00.000-07:00

In your eyes, people see kindness... You're just so... so... so... Sweet! You're kind and love to give others in need, a helping hand. You're pretty shy but can be warm and friendly towards those you know, and those who know you best. Your sanctuary would just be any place that is warm, cozy, and inviting to all people. You love to show signs of affection to your lover but a small simple talk does the trick as well ;) Sadly, your kindness can be used to your disadvantage. People can use you, and take advantage over your sweet and sensitive mind.... But fear not! With you being so kind and generous, people look up to you and adore you ^-^ No one would dare hurt you because they can't bear the thought of your sweet smile turning into a frown :)
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2005-07-03T23:44:00.000-07:00

im tired. my leg is aching. *ouch* went out to town and meet my besties. my long lost besties. fadilah. its been long since i met her. that was lyk last year i tink. met her at 2+ at orchard. went to wisma atria and shop. den went to lunch at fareast. i very hungry oredi. but she insist on going shoppink ferst. browse here and there. looking fer a skirt dat took her so long. den i tot she finished browsing. so i tot its lunch next. we are gonna eat at last. but wait. not yet. go and meet her friend. fetch her friend. erm wad was her name? i fergot la. mina or somethin. ya. its mina. shes gorgeous. ya. haha. ferst impression i tot mina sombong. *slap twice* no. no. shes not. shes reali2 friendly. haha. ok so we tot of hanging ard at taka. we went there but to our dismay. there were like erm.. 10..20..30.. erk ! i dunno. there were lyk erm.. MANY! i mean many foreigners. not as in the orang putih. but so many bangla and maid-looking ppl. haha. k i not look down at them ehk. but its lyk.. i tot i was at thailand or bangladesh. haha. there were so many of them and lyke i saw this bangla flirting with this thai girl. omg ! that is lyk *^#*^!#$^ ... ok sheeesh! i dowan to tok bout it. hah! we cancel our plan and just sit ard outside wisma. ok. then they smoke ! ya. they! not me. i good girl. i sit far2. haha. den we went down and meet dilah's brother. we went fareast again. this tym we go and have our freakin lunch ! but then i have no appetite oredi so i just buy drinks. pathetic. look again fer skirts as i look out fer bags. yeah im obsessed with bags. dun ask me why. phobia i guess. hah! i love bags. mwah ! haha. dilah at last bought her skirt. it was mental torture to look ard for her skirt. even mina gets boring i guess. i was. ya. den look for dilah's brother a bag. he was lyk searching fer it. blablabla. at last they bought it. ok uh. its a long story i cut it short. we split. i go home. im tired. psst! i tot i saw leandra just now. but im not sure its her or not. ok im sure. she's lyke with a guy. hiding from crowd i guess. i smile at her and she smiled back. how sweet. ok. da. bye2 ppl.

2005-07-02T18:49:00.000-07:00

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August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .

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CUTE personality
Awww, you have a cute personality, you LOVE little fuzzy animals and trips to Disney Land. Bless...

Hahahaha i lurveee fuxxy little animals. so kyute..awww..

2005-07-02T09:06:00.000-07:00

k i bored again. everytyme bored sey. damn tired u noe. yesterday balik skool at 6. damn pathetic. i hate my skewl. yea! heard dat?! its reali damn crap. what are they trying to do?! make the students go mental berserk. its really driving me nuts from the first day of school. from the start theres supplementry. wad de hell~! 4.30 everyday go home. no tym to do homework. till i need to burn my midnight oil. wad de heck. this is driving me to my own grave. get dat?! friday oso no break. got mock exam. burn my tym till 6pm. i hate dat.

6 !

its 6 unoe !!!

near to 7 !

i went home mus finish my assignment. till 12+..den nid sleep. wake up sumtyms as late at 6.30am.reach school at the nick of tym. urgh!! shoot me! kill me!! do whatever u think its good. ok bye!

2005-06-30T20:53:00.000-07:00

wtf happen to cbox?

im frustated.

hah!

k da. im bored.

BORED

BORED.

get it?

ok well done. i noe u clever. =))

2005-06-29T17:33:00.000-07:00

SYF Gold Winning EL Drama Award Performance

Venue: Nanyang Academic of Fine Arts (NAFA)

Tix: $12 (not confirm)

Date: 21 and 22 June.

Tampines Secondary EL Drama Performance

-Wounded.

Based on story of real-life incident that had happened to teenagers.

Its about a popular girl in school who have its own clique.

She goes around picking on a girl.

Taunting and jeering.

But it ended well.

A Happy Ending as i expected.

Cheers~!

2005-06-29T14:14:00.000-07:00

third day of skewl. how long sey wanna wait any longer .. haish .. next week mother tongue O level exam .. im gettin bored with skewl.. this is my last year so heck care .. do my best and den get out of skewl. haha.

my schedule is damn full. everyday go home at ard 5. every friday and alternate wednesday theres mock exam. how stressful..urgh!! on 20, 21 and 22 June theres drama rehersal. shit! i wanna quit! every teacher is finding fault with the sec4 syf cast and crew. why the heck?! not our fault ryte. mrs crothers make us do our last performance. i noe this is our O level year. CCA stand down oredi. we shouldnt be involve in anything except our studies but without us how is the performance gonna b going on. sec 4 syf budak ramai jugak pe.. if all quit den might as well pull the drama out of the performance. the problems is still not finish yet. watever!~

2005-06-25T17:33:00.000-07:00

im thinkin of changing my template..hmm..wonderin..

2005-06-25T16:28:00.000-07:00

k. i hate my comp coz its always gettin virus. shit! damn it! watever.

2005-06-15T20:35:00.000-07:00

im home!!!!
i miss singapore!!!
but i oso miss KL!!
i miss my frens!!
we had so much fun!!
k da..im so hungry..7 hours not eaten yet.
update more bout my trip.

and to all the taggers..tanx fer taggin..double kisses fer ya'll..mwahx2! haha!

2005-06-11T21:16:00.000-07:00

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?

Boy: No

Girl: Do you like me?

Boy: Not really

Girl: Do you want me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you cry if I left?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy: No way

Girl: What would you choose: your life..or me?

Boy: My life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boyruns after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is becauseyou're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason Iwouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you isbecause I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chosemylife is because you ARE my life.

awww..isnt dat sho sweet. k da. i sad. -.-"

2005-06-11T17:52:00.000-07:00

emo is fer preety people. =)
you sure not?
haha.
k i bored. stoopid uh.

mel say byebye.

ps: im going to KL fer three days 13-15 June. so dun hate me if i din update. haha.

2005-06-11T15:54:00.000-07:00

today im dead bored!

serious.

well im packing my bags fer monday.

goin KL..

im not excited.

i dunno.

haha.

im so2 laughing at my sis. well my cuzzy looks like her. damn it. i owaez tot they kinda look the same. its lyk really wierd u see. they owaez drees up lyk the same. and now.. both have their fringe CUT! hahaha. and wads more weird..they kinda look the same NOW~! haha. speechless. blearh~ im still laughing. ok da. stop. haha. if u wanna see my cuzzy pix..it is posted on my sis entry. have a look aite..

=))

iqa..iqa..ish2..haha..

2005-06-10T21:32:00.000-07:00

its the last day of school?? !! yeah!

urghh!

still not yet lar fer me.. some was happy. im not so.haha.after school 11.30, i went straight home to change and attend some O level seminar at the powerbuilding dere. it was quite interesting la. its was full of laughter at the 2nd part of the seminar and stuff.

blabber3~

den ask my sis meet me at somerset mrt station. lembab sgt dektu. haha. we went to hmv fer awhile. see2. den went off to fareast plaza. went ard level one. looking fer bags and stuff. went to took neoprints. haha. lame uh. duh! nvm. haha. k..my sis cut her fringe. i wanted to laugh but wait lyk bad kn. jahat sey gitu. but i still did laugh. hahaha. well not bad la. ok. i say OKAY.

went ard2. i was kinda tired. lack of rest. so we went home straight. meet our mummy darling at tamp mrt station. and walk home! WALK u noe. haha. more tired. now i at home. wan go sleep. k bye.

2005-06-09T18:49:00.000-07:00

u noe wad. sometymes i juz dun understand girl. well..although im a girl myself. i juz cant understand how stoopid can some be. well im not tryin to say that "girl" is stoopid. its jus dat some girl still lurve that jerk who break their heart. its obvious as ive seen one myself. she still cant get over the guy till now. manz. its like over 2 months for this "girl" i noe.i noe some cant get over their guys fer years and years. im just trying to voice out to these bunch of heartless jerk. cant you understand how much lurve "she" has fer youu..or are u just blind to notice. shit u noe dat. obviously there is some reasons till separation occurs. but cant u lyk gif some chances. or are u just heartless.

i noe this girl. i noe her so much that i could sae she has not gotten over the guy she loves so much. in front of the guy she act lyk she has forgotten hym and has move on. but i noe she has not. i noe she cried fer hym some nytes. is dat heartless? almost all night she cries. but she still smiles thru her pain. i sometymes dun no wad to say. to me its stoopid. but to her its not. i understand. she still contact wif him though, eventhough they are not together. i just cant understand y? haish.. but i noe she loves hym. deep inside she still loves hym. she just dowan to show it to hym.

so guys. i just hope u understand. and please be more observant and take notice of simple things lyk..
well..u noe obviously..those lil stuff..be more understanding..

2005-06-07T16:59:00.000-07:00

shit again!
see lar my comp just got bck..baru repair.. biase la..
virus attack..
haha
im so bz..i hardly haf tym fer aniting..
im sick now..so sick..nie uh..psl smlm nyer psl..mandi laut skrg kaki cramp..hate it man..
da uh bye!

if i haf tym..i'll update k guys..tata..keep on taggin baybeh! muax!

2005-05-30T14:14:00.000-07:00

MT O LEVEL IS OVERRRR.
weeeeeeeeeee~
at last.
k now im not dead.
ahaha.
im terribly shaken.
it was not bad.
i dunno how to say it. but it was ok.
shit!
school is not over fer me yet. i mean yet.
i dun even think i haf holidays. urgh!!
my schedule is so tight.
let me see.

31 May- ART
(must finish the painting. hate dat.)

01 June- ART
(again)

02 June- ART
(again too) from lyke 8.30 till 12.30 for these 3 days.*

03 June- In focus
(oso basically from 8.30 till 12.30)

04-05 June- My break.
(still fer me its not holiday. dat was meant to be holiday lyk any other day)

06 June till 10 June - In focus oso.
(8.30 till 12.30)

*9 June-8.30 am till 4pm

11-12 June- Break
(but not holiday fer me. this is call ur weekends lyk any other day.)

13-15 June- KL school trip. 3days 2 night.
(not holiday. basically no rest. ahaha. well. study again.)

16-17 June- Drama practice (9am till 5pm)
*both day clash with English course (9am till 4pm)
~ i dunno wad to do. urghhh!

18-19 June- Break

20 June- English course (9am till 4pm)

21 June- Shit! lyke dats da onlyy day i haf? Fark!

22 June- English course (9am till 4pm)

23 June- Drama practice(9am till 5pm)

24 June- English course (9am till 4pm)

25-26 June- Break (weekends)

27 June- School resume.

Urghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

I hate this!!!!!!!!

Kill me now!!!!!!!!

pls!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-29T16:31:00.000-07:00

IM DEAD!

IM DEAD!

IM DEAD!

IM DEAD!

IM DEAD!

URRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-27T23:07:00.000-07:00

today sux! get report book..my result was atrocious..urgh! parents must come down..dats the bad part..but watever..well actuali not much to talk about..onli the part dat my teacher say i need to focus on my studies..see lar..shit u noe..but ferst2 lyk praise so good..sae i veri pleasant lar..good uh..behavior bleh tahan cumer result jek da slack..but i noe oredi wad..haha..da lar..

monday O level MT..i wan study..i must study..pray fer me..k? ehehe..

one more thing..since lyk im having O level this year..now i cannot use comp everidae..sad ryte..nvm..

sacrifice..

hehe..

2005-05-26T18:53:00.000-07:00

im getting nervous! ahaha. hate dat. tmr get report book and im sure its a BIG disappoinment. im owaez sure it is. hmmphh!!! todae sux fer me. well.. at last the intensive programme is over or else..hmm..or else?? haha.. or else ill probably be gettin sick of malay..seriously..lyk this daes, theres malay paper1 & 2 to do..i noe its fer our own gud. but for me its lyk..are u crazy? ahaha. but nvm. its over now. monday is the real day! the first! i meant mother tongue O level paper. damn it i better get A1 fer this. and den i can lyk drop the subject and focus on my other weaker subject..hell im gonna get A1. pray fer me. ahaha. wish me luck! mwahx! hehe..

all the best to those takin their O Level this monday..study hard okeh? pray hard oso. haha

2005-05-23T10:22:00.000-07:00

to my dearest reader,

haha..yeye jek. i so tired now. leg pain2. lyke now is 9+ and its so tiring..duh! ard 12, me n my sis,iqa meet my cuz sis, faryn at tamp small mc. den we go cthall. meet her guy, abg haikal there. awww. serious abg haikal kyute. lyk everione said dat.. sweet couples seyy. hrmm. after tt we all go town. go Heeran first. spent most of our tyme at HMV. i wan buy MCR but not enuff money. den got GSC cd oso.sedih sey.mahal uh pat sane. after dat look fer clothes. browse2. cuci mate. then from there we go WALK to Fareast. omg! my leg pain oredi by den..we den go eat. eat at the top floor restaurant. but it doesnt look even lyk a restaurant seyy. more lyk a pathetic coffeeshop. actuali wanna go to LJS..but this lovebirds here insist on going there. hahas!okayy. den go to level one dere. look for original stuffs. but den nvr buy anythink lah. money haf. but just dowan to waste at this moment..haha. haha. than we go to scotts, Isetan. Kak faryn wanna buy stuffs there and Abg haikal wanna buy gifts for his mother. awwwww. isnt dat sho shuweet! heehs! okayy. than we go to Quiksilver shop and roxy shop dere,cos Abg haikal wanna look fer clothes. than ard 6 liddat, we took bus 190, go cthall. meet my sis fren, shakila and the members there. cos they got jammin at penin at 7. for their performance for oi fest. than all of us including kyla (shakila), we go to penin fer awhile. go cuci mate at la vanita there. see2. haha. than we go riverside. chill there fer awhile. abg haikal dont lyk iqa mixing wid some of the guys just now cos he noes those guys. he dont wanna anithink happens to her. eventhough he doesnt haf sister, he treats others lyk her lyk his own sister. awww. sho touching liddat! we play ard n joke ard at riverside. how not so romantic.haha. kyla and iqa n me keep luffing non-stop cos of the two couples. haha. they are lyk lil kids liddat. den get to see the moon appears from i dunno where. so nyce. full moon sumore. after tt, after bein so bored, iqa and kyla n me go esplanade roof top..see the view from top.nice2.den kyla was so fussy of goin bck to penin to eat at foodstop. went bck again to penin leaving the couples. i dunno where they go. after dat. teman dat kyla eat. den we look for them cos we lost them n kak faryn hp is off n i dont haf abg haikal`s no. we got no choice but to wait fer them at cthall mrt station. wait2. than kak faryn call. n eventually meet them again. haha. den from there we haf to separate wid abg haikal. and b4 dat again they were teasing and playing wif each other lyk kids. come on u guys r 18 oredi. be matured la. kick here. kick there. punch ol dat. but seriously they were cute sey..ahaha..after tt. finish.

tomorrow skool. i hate! leg so pain readi! argh! =S

2005-05-22T22:46:00.000-07:00

todae im so dead bored!

u noe. dead bored!

klua jap. pastu balik.

im craving fer bubbletea. yeaps2. i wan. i wan.

have mercy on me. buy me bubbletea. its only a dollar.

ahaks!

2005-05-21T23:41:00.000-07:00

olla. =)) just now went fer my cuzzin burfdae. the gawthic one. she had turn eighteen todae. nyeahahas! i jealous uh. she preety sia. her guy was dere too. awwwwwww. shoo sweet. seriousssslyyy. her guy look lyk khai. after tt we all cuzzins went to her room n tok bout stuffs. look at sum pixxies. so gothic manx. and so scary. the one where shes wearink lyk all black and her face all white. the pix where she took it at nyte. omg! look so real. yada.yada. den we plan to meet up somedae. told her to meet tomorrow. at paradigm. but not sure.. cos shes goink out wif her boi. lerrrrr.. okay. i hate my abg sedare!! sux! he took my mums hp n msg people. fuck. hate u arsehole. pathetic freak.

- OKAY. I HATE YOU.

edited a bit by me. ahakS! copy from my sis.lazy to wryte.
well.. we were there..preety much the same.

2005-05-21T10:06:00.000-07:00

ouhhhh weeee~ boredom strikes me..
im helpless~! ahaks! enjoy~

Demolition Lovers

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the
highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...

All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this

As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms

Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning

Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun

And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down
I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever

2005-05-20T20:00:00.000-07:00

urgh! frustrated with my comp..but at last i can update my blog..weehee~ thanx to my dearie sis, iqa..dearie? biar betol..ahakS! dah tk nk flatter2 org..kembang nanti.. well..this week sux fer me..damn boring..dead boring..so boring..my result was poor..get that? POOR.. i dont think its up to my standard at all..haish..but its not the end of the world..now im gonna vent my anger..u now wad..i noe he meant gewd of wad he said but u cant just judge others just lyk dat..watever shit HE said..eat up your words uh..everything u say is not gonna happen..i mean the one he said the negative part..i really hope and i MUST and WILL get to slap his face at the end of the day..i mean on the day O's result is out..i noe im not the type of person who lyk yeye liddat slap people's face..but y not? he did sae we cld slap his face? Duh!

p.s: paham2 la sape "he" tu ehk..

2005-05-15T20:31:00.000-07:00

I'm so bored today.
Heres some thingy and name generator i posted. ahaks!
Boring..Duh!
So enjoy!

Your Birthdate: August 8

Born on the 8th day of the month, you have a special gift for business, as you can conceive and plan on a grand scale.

You have good executive skills and you're a good judge of values.

You should try to own your own business, because you have such a strong desire to be in control.

You are generally reliable when it comes to handling money; you can be trusted in this regard.

Idealistic by nature, you are never too busy to spend some time on worthwhile causes, especially if managerial support are needed.

There is much potential for material success associated with this number.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

KAMILAH
K	is for	Kinky
A	is for	Artistic
M	is for	Modernl
I	is for	Influential
L	is for	Lovable
A	is for	Adventurous
H	is for	Hot

What Does Your Name Mean?

Haha. Me? Kinky? well, maybe.. Artistic? Can be lar..Modern? hmm.. Influential? think so.. Lovable? erk! blabber3~ Adventurous? Not so la.. Hot? you gotta be kidding me..ahaks!

Your Mexican Name Is...

Doña Marlina

What's your Mexican Name?

Wohoo! dona marlina..nice..marrrr liina..nyeahaha~

Your Japanese Name Is...

Nishi Shigenoi

What's your Japanese Name?

my jap name..nishi..classy man..ahaks! isit?

Your Porn Star Name is: Ima Cumming

Get your own Porn Star Name

Ima Cummings? Namer pornstar ke? ish2.. ima2..kesian dier..pornstar..

Your Stripper Name is: Paris

Get your own Stripper Name

woah! my stripper name is Paris! stripper sak..wakaka..

To pick up kamila: You must be Jamaican... because Jamaican me crazy.

Get your own Magic Pick Up Line

nyahahaha~ Jamaican me crazy..am i a jamaican? ahaks!

Your Drag Queen Name is: Iva Fetish

Get your own Drag Queen Name

Namer style sey..iva fetish..how nice if that was my name...ahaks!

da bes enjoy da? mepek nye orang buat mepek nye bende..dun mind me..*wink2*

2005-05-13T17:32:00.000-07:00

yea bebeh! exam da bes liao. ahaks! im so happi2. celebrate not yet la. see exam result ferst. ahaks. now my brain can rest. AT LAST! so exhausted. i dunno tomorrow whether wan go follow dem to escape theme park or not.. haish.. no money sia. how to go liddat.jun dowan go of coz. i feel lyk goin but den not with DEM. i nid sharifah or jun to follow. ahaks! but heck care. im gonna enjoy a bit den relax2. after dat start revising AGAIN. yeaps2. my o level not yet finish. im suffering. this is pure torturing. ahaks! but nvm. sacrifice means gewd. haha. blabber~!

just now is the last paper. history mod. its was ok uh. oso no comment. not difficult. not easy. okeh2. haha. im so darn tired uh. lets enjoy fer this mean tyme okeh?

laa laa laa~ tatada~

2005-05-12T18:34:00.000-07:00

today geo and maths. no comment. i give up. haha.

tomorrow last paper. history (modern world) yea bebeh! better study.

2005-05-08T21:10:00.000-07:00

i so bored sia one whole day. studyy oso lyke cannot liddat. stress sia. help!
open my bio book. i close. open my chemistry book oso i close. liddat how to pass sia. omg! mel!! wake up!! i dun have tym for this. seriously. anybody care to slap me or anithin. haha. wake me up inside. haha. lyk wan to sing liddat. blabber~!

yesterdae went to bedok there. my cuzzie house. i not close wif dem so lyk yest veri bored there. haha. go there to eat onleyy. free food can wadd?? haha.. actuali my abg sdare burfdae. like any other years. they owaez celebrate. so lyk yest was his 21st burfdae. omg! 21st u noe?? so cpt sia. lyk yest i tot he was in his late teens suddenly 20 + readi.. my god!! i dowan to grow old! i wanna stay young. haha.
FOREVER!! 20 lyk old oredi. haha. but nvm. lets enjoyy our life to the fullest okeh?
wohoo~!

2005-05-04T16:34:00.000-07:00

tomorow start of my exam..omg...stress u noe..i hate this man..but for the sake of future muz study wan..k la..da..go study..haha~!

2005-05-03T17:20:00.000-07:00

i haf 1 cousin less..one die oredi..he do NOT exist mind you..hah!

2005-05-03T17:18:00.000-07:00

haish...mulot nie tk leh simpan rahsie sgt..tapi da pomise tk ckp..tapi skrg nie tk ckp tau..skrg type..phm2 uh..jgn sembarangan..listen to this..look at this..org islam..i mean muslim..a malay guy..a very well educated guy who is well taken care by his so called religious parents could convert to other religion..how wld dat sound to you? oh my god!! my GOD!! this is a discrimination..wad the hell is in ur mind? i mean HELL..get it..u..are well prepared to go to HELL unless u change and realise ur stewpid mistake..and of all religion..u pick christian..and I MEAN OF ALL RELIGION dumbass..fark! and after convertin u cld even sae dat u are more tenang in the religion..shithead! i dun understand wad is going on in that brainless brain of urs..ckp jek pandai..puas hati uh biler da convert..bleh announce satu skola..happi uh..a brainless teacher..a brainless son..a brainless cousin..a brainless moron..he is just brainless..u said we shld not aggravate..but hey dumbass..dun say we shld not coz we will..and we would make things worse..pe nk jadi nie..insaf la skit..pikir bagos pe tukar2 agama..ingat game kepe..besok ko masok christian pas tu buddhist..pas tu masok uh hindu..beh tu lepas nk mati masok balik islam..ko pikir dunie ko slamat pe..i have nothin more to say but just sae..well haf fun wif ur life coz u think its good wad..hah!

2005-05-02T22:23:00.000-07:00

todae went out to parkway parade ngan family..mkn2..well..not much..
tmr da start skola..boring uh..exam pon nk kat start tapi lom lagi start revise..pe la..haha..urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fark!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-01T23:10:00.000-07:00

fuck up dae! tanx to the shithead asshole farkin stewpid egoist brainless attitude stuck up cousin of mine. hah! cousins? i dun tink so.. not anymore uh.. pegi mampos suda uh..bdk madrasah jek..step uh tu..mentang2 da besar nk step terror uh..sial nye jantan..ingat aku heran uh tu..pe ku kesa lau ko lagik tue dari aku..19 tahun? matured uh tu..prangai cam taik sak..jerit uh puas2 laen kali..mcm aku takot lau ko jerit..hah! my toes are laughing uh..lyke the ferst tym aku dgr bdk tu maki.. chibai? haha..mmg aku ader puki pe..ko tu pe ader.. tah dier tu tak tau pon aper tu chibai nk step maen ckp..jaga mulot ko skit uh ehk..sial nyer jantan..tkde respect untok ko lagik uh!! jgn harap aku nk layan ko lagik uh.. sensitive sak bdk cam nie..org bagik comment tk leh terime suda uh..mcm la hensem sgt..EGOIST!!! step hensem!!! smpi biler2 aku akn ckp ko step hensem!! mmg tk hensem uh!! jerit lagik uh!! it was meant to just kacau2 he took it seriously..mampos uh!! aku skrg take it seriously uh..farkin egoist!!

borink

2005-04-30T09:40:00.000-07:00

Todae at home one whole day. so borink u noe. eat and sleep. study. watch tv.play computer. lyk dats all i do.hmph! i wan go out veri lazy. plan fer todae all CANCELLED. sad sey. haish. nvm uh. study2. after exam den can play hard. haha. i mean hangout and jalan2. i wan to drink bubbletea. i miss bubbletea. haha. weirdo. psycho maniac. i wan to watch movie oso. i wan. i wan. house of wax lyk nice. i wan! but cannnot. sad uh. da la. if i study den i can pass my exam. if i pass my exam den can go watch movie. yea! den can go drink bubbletea! yea! haha.

Pray hard to pass.

2005-04-29T21:32:00.000-07:00

just now enlish and mother tongue paper 1. omg! its ok uh. not too hard. not too easy. but now its up to miracles to happen. haha. whether to pass or to fail. i hope i pass. mother tongue of coz. but english..hah! fat hope uh. i lyk owaez fail liddat.
dangerous u noe.hmm..english all veri broken.haha.actuali not so broken.haha. todae nothing much.i go school.i go home. i go study. i go bath. i go eat. i go sleep. the end.

stress anxiety anger fear. tis one all bio test one..haha..

2005-04-27T05:18:00.000-07:00

todae stressful..biology test..omg! tired u noe..yesterday study..todae woke up early den study..stress u noe..haish..no one dares not to study bio..saper tk tau..mr hafiz pe..strict..fail onli..he will kill u..and u'll b dead..haha..so real liddat..if he dare la..haha..hmm..bio nt bad uh..can do actuali..haha..fridae start mid-year!!! omg!! save me!!

2005-04-26T05:17:00.000-07:00

sick uh..nvr go skewl todae..haiyoh! *sneeze2*

2005-04-25T03:58:00.000-07:00

im so pissed off..urgh!! bz2...

Wad??!!! serious??!! haha . .

2005-04-22T07:39:00.000-07:00

today was lyk any other daes. onli dat it started the morning off wif lectures. pathetic. urgh! ferget it. i cant wait fer the result from morning till afternoon. no signs of result. we went to mr neo and ask but he said he hasnt got any info bout syf result. pathetic principle. lyk wad sia. haha. but nvm2. still can survive. but im so anxious to noe!! blabber3~ went home. check my fwenster. got a call from sharifah. i call her back. veri shock wen she suddenly told me we won gold!! haha. yesh everione.. gold!! duh~! happi~! i almost shouted lyk mad women. jump2 up n down. luckily no one at home. haha. tok2 with sharifah. den call junaidah n break the news. see la i cannot diam one. must tell sumone. haha. call jun oso she shouted lyk mad. haha actuali not lyk mad uh. haha. den call bck sharifah coz jun wanted to call hanisah to break the news. haha. shairfah wanted to go bck to skewl and mit the rest. so i oso tag along uh follow her. jun oso ikot. met them. hug2. cry2. cry of joy lerr. haha. we wan to shout but cannot la coz wait ppl tot we crazy. haha. mrs crothers was there too. she was happy. but kind of happy fer us. bt shes more happi with her commonwealth skewl. coz they won gold with honours. watever. heck i care wif the outsiders. im proud of everyone. veri2 proud. tym to be snobbish. haha. ppl tot we cld juz won bronze. but no. we won gold instead. hehe.

"only three kind of women wear make up."
"working women."
"are u a working women?"
"superstars."
"do u tink ur a superstar."
"or the third type."
"PROSTITUTE!! is dat who u wanna b!!"

see lar this stupid line keep on repeating in my brain. our drama line uh. haha.
but nice uh. haha.

"nobody sees my pain, i just smile thru my tears"

blabber3~

borring uh...

2005-04-21T17:05:00.000-07:00

today was borring. i went home straight after skewl. at last i get to go home early. thank god. haha. tmr maths test. im sooooooo not good in maths. urgh! some say it was easy. well, im not sure. let it be easy. haha. just now was my chem test. just do any how onli. lazy uh wan to study. study oso no use. never get into the brain.
im so confused with my lyfe. haish. mel! get a lyfe! haha. well lets see how i score for my chem test. fail pon fail uh. but if i pass its a miracle. haha. lets study together k ppl. haha. o level coming. mid year coming. damn it! im getting busy now! help! haha.

2005-04-20T20:50:00.000-07:00

todae after skewl, stay bck for speech day rehearsal. watch2 they perform. haha. the speech day cast needed the make up. found out dat our make up kit for the SYF must have left at ACS. Shit! cost ard $300 sia. wasted. so expensive. no is to be blame actualy. everyone have their own jobs to do. haish. blabber3~

during the speech day rehearsal, was very..i mean very chaotic. haha. farzanah, shahida, saleha, sharifah, hanisah and me cheer2 lyk .haha. that was wen raini and raihana was on stage for their prize presentation. den tym liy and syiqa went up on stage.. we create wave together wif raihana and raini. crazee ppl! haha..shout ,cheer an stuff. haha. duh! stupid ryt?! lyk wad onli we all.. haha.
we wanted to show our support mah. hehe. our speech day drama peepswer very boring on stage. duh! so damn boring. wad i now is just reading and learning and reading and learning. SYF people more gerek. hehe. we are better an the junior. crazy and hell lotsa fun. i seriously miss the one week break. miss the syf ppl. i miss the cast and crew pp. i miss mrs crothers even though she owaez act lyk a bitch ard us. but actuali shes not bad uh. shes not actuali bitchy. well.. shes our instructor. director. she noes how to act. haha. result for the SYF is on friday. im cant wait.im so eager and desperate to noe the result. pls let it be GOLD . pretty pls. i reali2 want to win e Gold award. hehe. blabber3~

go home at 6+. cabot quickly. we all hug2 and kish2. eewww.. haha girls..we miss each other. not wrong to hug2 kish2 ryte? haha..crazy us..we are crazy dun mind us. we noe how to act. dats y we are acting dat way. haha. lolx~ muackx2~

syf judging competition

2005-04-19T17:37:00.000-07:00

just got home from ACS barker. today was our big day. it was our syf competition day. it was tense. rehersing over and over again. polishing each scenes. practicing the lights and sounds. it was tensing. blabber3~
we crews were release for our break. at ard 10+, we went to burger king for our breakfast. we promise to return at 11.30. but were a little late. just al little late. haha. yes we were. well, so wad. we did nothing wrong. onli taking pictures before the big competition. release tension uh katekn. haha. girls..girls..u noe them.
ok2..so we went bck for the last full dress runs and at 1pm we board the bus. blabber3~ off to acs barker. wohoo~ i wasnt nervous at ferst. still chillin and relaxing until the moment went i step into the theatre. bla3~ overall, the show was fantastic, very well coordinated. haha.it was a very nice play. beautiful. even unknown schools congratulate us the moment we step out. we waited fer the bus but it was a little early. so we took the opportunity to went bck to the theatre to watch the performance from springfield. well, it was OK for me. personally, i din enjoy the show. a lil bitty boring. not my type. but i did say it was OK. i just hope we will get gold. hope that the eldds will make the school proud. wat a waste if we fail in doing so.

pixies

2005-04-19T08:01:00.000-07:00

2005-04-15T22:42:00.000-07:00

3rd rehersal at acs barker road. ard 5 daes more to the competition. it was tense. im so nervous. journey there was fun. to me. haha. got some idiotic shithead in a lorry. i dunno. some ppl look lyke bangla liddat. haha. laugh2 at us. we show middle finger bck. haha. lame! ms lazaroo, miss yeo, mrs cheng, mrs choon, and mr john chua accompanied us to acs. we met mrs crothers there. there were loads of ppl. haha. props. casts. crews. they rehearse. hanisa and me do the lighting. rashiqah and atiqa do the music. ferst round was good. fantastic. we do a good job. 2nd round. some errors but still smooth. 3rd round. shit. some delegates or teachers were spot on top of the theater takking pictures of the play. damn it. i swear if they tend to copy our play or ideas, they'll be dead. seriously what a loser.mrs crothers was mad. what if they imitate. shitttttttttttt! hell wif those stewpid teachers!
craps. raihana almost cry wen she saw ppl taking pictures of dem.she wanted to shout out but afraid that she will b scolded.haish. wat to do. let bygones be bygones. bck to skewl. practice again. 2 hour break. sharifah atiqa and me went to eastpoint. eat at banquet. nice2. went to buy a container for the flood lights. wen bck to skewl by taxi. there was speech dae rehersal. went to the rifle range. put the container. they were still practicing. wen bck to search for makeup container. wen to ntuc. sharifah, atiqa n me went to preety tokyo. lyk got tym liddat. haha. take picture. den went bck to skewl. see the play again. this tym it was so touchy. feeling2. so sad. i almost cried. they were good. i really hope eldds will get gold. yea dats the spirit! we will win it.

2005-04-14T01:35:00.000-07:00

one whole day of practice again. good play. good show. buy stuff again. i feel so lethargic by then. full dress rehersal. the cast were exquisite. the dresses were so...so classy. skirts were short. i mean damn short. luckily raini and raihana stay up till 3am to add some white...i dunno wat it is call..haha..but it was eventually better.but the guys still things it sux. coz the girls look sumkind lyk a prostitute. well i dunno. probably the black socks make them look lyk one..haha..but they look more like jpop dolls. so cute. reali. todae was fun.joys and laughter. pure bliss.

syf rehersal

2005-04-13T01:25:00.000-07:00

i cant believe it. he actually let us all skip lessons.not particularly skip but damn it.cant believe it.ever since shasha was kicked out due to some problems. shahida took over her role " the main character" of WOUNDED. we have approximately 1 week to rehearse. we were release to practice. no study. no lessons. damn i was happy. but i was a bit disappointed too. im afraid i could not catch up wif my studies. *sob sob* one whole day of practice. 8am till 6pm. damn i was tired. this is just the beginning. onli the beginning. i reali hope our SYF members could get gold. seriously. the play is damn interesting.